Angry and unstable… that’s how everyone can describe me these days…
The peaceful boy is not me anymore… I’m feeling the deception, and the depression is drinking my blood like a mosquito… when I’m bored from it, I try to push it away… only few seconds pass and I hear it again annoying my ears, so I announce another self defeat…
No one decided to be away from me, but I decided to do…
That’s ongoing since I said that I will fight alone, as if the power is from me…
I love God… there in no one question, and he knows that…
Long time ago the periods where my heart is cold was so short… but now; I barely can go out…
I feel dry because of my daily tears… and more liters of water do not change the situation…
My body is surrounded by everything beautiful, but not my mind…
The flowers are asking what’s going on… I’m passing near them without even saying “hi”… the trees misses my touch… and the birds are talking to me, while I do not understand their sounds since a long time…
I live in the silence, that’s true… but in the "killer" one…
Today while working, my “palm” started ringing… I was surprised, I didn’t set it’s reminder for something… I took it to read…
I was surprised again… It was a yearly reminder I set many years ago…
It said: THANK YOU GOD…
When I read that, I felt something no one can describe…
When I wrote it and set it annually was when God changes something in my life… or you can say he colored her… when I stopped condemning people, because I understood that they are prisoners of something or someone, and that my role in life is not just healing their pain, but also to give them freedom…
What did I do? That’s a good question…
Because routine makes us forget, I set my “palm” to remind me every second… and the new phrase format is: “THANK YOU GOD FOR YOUR ETERNAL LOVE… I LOVE YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS DO SO”…
The peaceful boy is not me anymore… I’m feeling the deception, and the depression is drinking my blood like a mosquito… when I’m bored from it, I try to push it away… only few seconds pass and I hear it again annoying my ears, so I announce another self defeat…
No one decided to be away from me, but I decided to do…
That’s ongoing since I said that I will fight alone, as if the power is from me…
I love God… there in no one question, and he knows that…
Long time ago the periods where my heart is cold was so short… but now; I barely can go out…
I feel dry because of my daily tears… and more liters of water do not change the situation…
My body is surrounded by everything beautiful, but not my mind…
The flowers are asking what’s going on… I’m passing near them without even saying “hi”… the trees misses my touch… and the birds are talking to me, while I do not understand their sounds since a long time…
I live in the silence, that’s true… but in the "killer" one…
Today while working, my “palm” started ringing… I was surprised, I didn’t set it’s reminder for something… I took it to read…
I was surprised again… It was a yearly reminder I set many years ago…
It said: THANK YOU GOD…
When I read that, I felt something no one can describe…
When I wrote it and set it annually was when God changes something in my life… or you can say he colored her… when I stopped condemning people, because I understood that they are prisoners of something or someone, and that my role in life is not just healing their pain, but also to give them freedom…
What did I do? That’s a good question…
Because routine makes us forget, I set my “palm” to remind me every second… and the new phrase format is: “THANK YOU GOD FOR YOUR ETERNAL LOVE… I LOVE YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS DO SO”…
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